My good day out

Well today I had a day out (a bit of a rarity for me these days)!!!
I went into the city today to meet up with my cousin for lunch. Now that might not sound too special, but I only got back in contact with her last year after not seeing her or hearing from her in about 7 years, just due to different problems and being very busy on both our parts.
Anyway, we've only been able to meet up 2 times before today, and I've been kind of bugging her for a couple of months now wanting to meet up with her. Unfortunately her work means she often can't plan to have lunch because she doesn't know if she'll be able to leave work, and on the weekends she is so busy catching up with other stuff, and her friends are always asking her and her partner out, so she can't do much on weekends either!!
Well, she was finally able to work out stuff with work to be able to leave for an hour or so for lunch, so I went into the city to see her!!!
I was so happy that we could meet up, because she is my favourite cousin and also a very good friend, and I love her to bits!!! (Luckily the feelings mutual!!)
So even though I am a bit tired now, and I know I'll be more tired tomorrow (and quite possibly sore as well!!) I have to say that it was truly worth any pain and tiredness!!!
She said that she's going to have to try to come out my way soon!!! Hey I could have a little dinner party.....maybe we could get takeaway??!! :P
When we're together we don't do anything that special, but just being able to see her is so great for me....stops me from feeling like I don't get to see anyone!!! And we just talk about everything, like what I've been doing at Tafe, my family, her family, what she's doing at work (she's in research and just started her Ph.D!!!)
So all up, a very good day, and now I want to do it all again!!!

Ah, the holidays.....

Don't get me wrong, I like Tafe a lot, but I'm so glad to be on holidays for 3 weeks....mind you, it's late in the first week off and I haven't done anything other than usual stuff so far....also, it's been raining like mad, which does make doing anything special or going anywhere a bit hard....oh well, I'm sure I'll find something to do...I've got to start making things with my beads, I gathered them all up the other day and discovered exactly how many beads I have, and that I don't need to buy anymore!!! Except for if I start selling things I make out of them, then I'll have to buy more beads to replace the ones I've used!!!
Feeling a bit "icky" lately, just all over not feeling well. Especially tonight...Usually I'm sitting up until at least midnight, but tonight I've had to lie down and have my laptop with me to do stuff.
Still no luck with finding any work at a vet clinic....maybe things will start to pick up soon...
And I need to make some major purchases....like a new bed (why are they so expensive??!) and find a computer...but I doubt I'll be buying a new one of those.....leasing one, maybe, but not buying....I'm not sure if I can even afford to buy a used computer....they're expensive too these days, at least if you want a computer that can do more than type a letter!!
One good thing that might happen though; I might start to groom some horses that are agisted on some land fairly close to where I live (ok, 20-30 minutes away!!), and if all works out, I might even be able to start riding, and properly, so I can re-find those muscles that I used to occasionally have!!! Yay!!!!
Anyway, I'll try to keep this updated more than I have been....my computer is so slow it takes it awhile to get things done!!!
"(They say) I'm a little too young to understand. But it's a little too late to hold my hand. You know I never subscribe to yes sir, no sir. Gonna learn, gonna love, gonna take my chance. It's a little too late for you to say that I'm a little too young to feel this way." A Little Too Late, Delta Goodrem

Veterinary nursing

Well, it's been a couple of weeks since my last entry, but since it seems like no one is reading this Blog yet, there doesn't seem to be much point in posting that frequently.
I suppose I should say something else about myself now, since the first 2 posts have only told you a bit about me.
I'm doing a veterinary nursing course at TAFE (a type of college for anyone who's overseas and might read this!)
I'm almost in the middle of my 2nd and final year, so fingers crossed by the end of this year I'll be a fully qualified vet nurse!!
I do at times wonder though, if doing this course, choosing it as a career, was such a good idea, particularly with my CFS, which is so unpredictable that I never know how I'm going to feel from one hour to the next, let alone one day or week to the next.
Which makes not only doing my course hard, but also trying to find a job or some volunteer work as a vet nurse, which happens to be a very crucial part of the course!!! Add to that fact the point that virtually no vet hospitals/clinics will take on volunteers anymore, due to the insurance and time it takes having someone to be training/supervising.
And most jobs that are out there in the vet nurse employment world are either for experienced nurses, or people in training who will work full time (read:every single hour they need a nurse for!) AND have a driver's licence and preferably their own car.
But if I don't get some kind of work before the end of this year, and get my skills folder filled out, I won't be allowed to complete the course and get my certificate. And if I don't get my certificate, then I have to start doing the new course, and spend up to another 2 years getting qualified......although now that I think about it, it may not be THAT bad an idea.....I finish through to the end of this year, but start next year with the new course, and just skip through what I've already done, and have plenty of time to get work and experience.....
Hmm, something to talk to some people about.
Better go.....have a ton of assignments to do for Tafe!!!
"It's a little too late for you to say,oo-woo, that I'm a little too young to feel this way
Cause I just wanna be loved, just wanna be heard, be lost in the feeling standing here at the door to my life, now the day has arrived
So loud and clear you'll hear me singing
Do do do doo do do do doo
You'll hear me singing
Do do do do doo do do do"
Little Too Late-Delta Goodrem

My story of CFS

Ok so it's after midnight, and it's CFS Awareness Week, so now seems as good a time as ever to tell my story about CFS.
I'm 21 now, and I've had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS) since I was about 14.
I don't really know what caused it, which is the same as with most people with CFS.
All I know is that in 1999, I had to leave school, I spent most of my days either in bed or at the doctors, and I felt absolutely horrible all the time.
The name Chronic Fatigue Syndrome really is misleading, because it makes people think that you're just tired all the time. CFS is more than just being tired, the list of symptoms that people can and do suffer from is extremely long, however not all sufferers suffer from the the same symptoms.
Some of the main problems I have, apart from the utterly exhausting fatigue that feels like I could've been run over by a truck after running a 5km marathon while having the flu (!!!), are severe problems with concentration, like 'brain fog', which means I am often walking around in a foggy cloud!! This has severly affected my studies that I've tried to do over the past 7 years....including my current veterinary nursing certificate at TAFE.
I also suffer from dizzyness and vertigo, nausea, headaches, aches and pains, muscle weakness, all of which are often very severe, as well as other symptoms which rear their ugly heads every so often, particularly when I'm in a relapse, which unfortunately I am now!!
Most people don't realise that CFS sufferers very often have remissions and relapses of their condition, not unsimilar to the way that people with cancer do. Not all people with CFS get better totally, some of them suffer from CFS for the rest of their lives.
One of the biggest fights that CFS sufferers has though, is with their doctors (who get frustrated with this patient who cannot get well, and suffers from a disease that doesn't have a recognised diagnostic test), their family & friends (who don't understand why this person they thought they knew so well is suddenly so tired, not acting themselves, and can't go out places at the drop of a hat), and the government, who won't provide enough money for research to be done into a diagnostic test, treatments, and eventually a cure. The government also time and time again, refuses to give people with CFS the help they need and deserve, like allowing them to get a disability support pension, which, pitiful amount that it is, is often the only means of being able to buy food, pay bills and buy medicines that are extremely high-priced in the hope they might provide some help in easing their symptoms.
May 9th-15th, 2005 is CFS Awareness Week, with May the 12th being International CFS Awareness Day.
So no matter where you live, what country, what state, support your local CFS Society and sufferers, you may not know who they are, but they could turn out to be someone you know, or even someone you love.

"I'm disorientated. I'm trying not to be jaded. When it's all so complicated. 'Cause I'm a little disorientated." Disorientated, Delta Goodrem

The First of Many

Well, here it is!!!
My first Blog, and my first post in my Blog!!
And I seem to be lacking something else to say!!
I will set down some ground rules for anyone who might ever be reading this:
1. This is not a diary that has anything whatsoever to do with sex, or porn, or violence. It is about my life and the things that go on in my life, not a page for rude &/or crude comments.
2. In following with that rule, if I share my email address &/or IM contacts on here, I do not want any males or females contacting me when they only want to cyber (or worse, want to meet in person).
3. I do like to talk to people online, and perhaps later on meet in person, but not if you don't have any idea of what the real world is like, or if you cannot write &/or speak clear and proper english. I am not a racist, nor am I racially prejudiced, however I like to be able to actually understand a person when I am talking to them, whetheer online or in person.
4. If you do not like what I write in my Blog, don't bother writing stupid &/or rude comments, as they will simply be deleted, and after all, no one made you read my blog!! I express my opinions about whatever I want to, however I don't write things to intentionally hurt people, I simply write how I feel, about the things that matter to me and are important to my life and how I live it.
5. This Blog is for fun, and for me to vent about things when I need/want to, and to raise awareness of things that don't get anywhere near enough publicity and support from the general public and from the governments (state, commonwealth and federal).

Ok, that's all the rules I can think of for now, I'm sure I'll think of more later, when it isn't after 3 in the morning!!

Live life to the most that you can, and "Hang on, and Be Strong" ('Be Strong', Delta Goodrem)